Angry

When I was young, I was told not to question God or be angry with God. I did not understand that statement then and I do not believe it is exactly true today. I have questions and I really need answers. I am angry and I believe I am ok to be angry as well as express my anger, confusion, and or doubt to my Father, I mean, HE is the only who is able to provide answers to the questions I have. He is the only one who is able to assure me in areas I have doubt and He is the only one who is able to ease my troubled mind.

I am angry today because, I do not feel I am in a place in my life in which I am in my flow (if that makes sense). I am angry because I do not have some of the things I want or believe I should have at my age or stage in my life.

I always look at me; what have I done or what am doing...........

I have grown in some areas and my way of thinking has definitely changed. I work hard, I care for my children, and I love God. Am I perfect; no. Have I always done the right thing; no.

I encourage you to ask your Father questions. Honestly, asking Him proves you do not have all the answers. He wants you to ask Him as it gives Him a chance to talk to you. Express that you are angry, hurt, confused, or are doubting some of the things He told you. Allowing Him to speak you, opens your heart enough for Holy Spirit to reveal areas you need to mature or develop.

Old folk used to say, "we will understand it better by and by".....but when it comes to me and my personal growth or lack of, I need to understand it now. lol but seriously, most of the time we already know why, we just don't want to accept it. Maybe the thing you want requires you to change.

Be encouraged we all face moments of doubt. We all are waiting on a promise or want something from God and it is ok to inquire of Him. Be angry and sin not! Be angry for a moment and then begin worshipping Him. Have your moment, He already knows what you feel/think.

So God I am angry and although it hurts, I kind of understand why I do not have some of the things I want. God I am angry but YOU are still GOD. God I try to understand spiritual things but sometimes my human mind cannot perceive spiritual things and sometimes my human intellect gets in the way. God speak to me today and comfort my heart and easy my mind from trivial thoughts.